Wednesday, August 16, 2017

GOD, ego and 'It'

Ego and super-ego go into a bar. Says the bartender, I need to see some I.D.

Freud conjectured that our being can be summed up as ego, super-ego and the 'id'. The trinity I want to propose is GOD, ego and 'It' instead. The GOD versus ego choice is what we spiritual travelers are concerned with, but life can be complicated. There are subconscious biases and there are life's complicated interactions. There are hopes, musts, fears, energy attractions and interferences. The 'It' is what guides us spiritual travelers through life, right into GOD's arms. The 'It' is the divine Matrix, an expression of our karmic bonds as well as our soul longings.

The 'It' works in the background and only makes us believe that we are in charge of our destiny. We are pushed and pulled by what is beneath the hood just like puppets. Over time we spiritual travelers can become ever more sensitive to the GOD versus ego choice that life presents. Especially if you are the spiritual wisdom seeker type can investigate the 'It' very much as Freud wanted us to become masters of the id. In contrast, for the devotional seekers, let the 'It' carry you HOME. All you have to do is to follow your spiritual path in good faith.

Tuesday, August 15, 2017

Making Friends with the Monster

Courage is being scared to death and saddling up anyway(John Wayne)

Have you ever stared at a monster from close range? There is something amazing about this scary experience; our well-established world breaks down at that moment. Our own thinking goes all over the place and we have nothing to hold onto whatsoever. Whether we like it or not, we have to put ourselves into the hands of fate as we approach the monster. We have to cope with life as it presents itself, not as we picture it to be. It is as if the monster removes our imaginary blinders. It is only then when we realize that the scary monster isn't as real as we made it out to be either.

Let's saddle up friends. Our spiritual path is waiting for us. Never mind the fear - magic happens along the WAY.

Monday, August 14, 2017


There is a price to be paid for every increase in consciousness. We cannot be more sensitive to pleasure without being more sensitive to pain.  (Allan Watts)

Call me an empath and I will bite my tongue not to laugh. I have been mind-driven all my life, so a less likely candidate I have yet to see. Yet, when my spiritual path opened up a few years ago, I suddenly became aware of the energy of people and places, as well as my own energy. Needless to say, I have changed a lot.

In the olden days, whenever I encountered someone with evil intentions, I would become angry. During those days I weakened my own system with this response. I would fight them and would 'coincidentally' fall sick from time to time. I would escape reality when the pressure got too overwhelming with alcohol or porn. These connections are so plain to see now, but I somehow I couldn't at that time.

Today I feel less angry when I clash with people who are on a collision course with me. Instead, I feel tired and sad. I am empath enough to experience how the other party sucks the energy right out of me. Attack me as a person and I may simply step out of the way; attack my loved ones or my mission and I will stand up to you with a force that will likely surprise you.

I know several empaths who quit their jobs from one day to the next. They did what they had to do in order to protect themselves. I also have a pain threshold. While I don't mind a little fight here or there, I have become sensitive and smart enough to leave a place when love is no longer served.

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Retreating to try another day

Once you become consciously aware of just how powerful your thoughts are, you will realize everything in your life is exactly how you allow it to be. (Melanie Moushigian Koulouris)

Melanie's statement is true. I experienced often in my professional life that I am exactly one decision away from making the colleague in the office next door my friend or my adversary. The Christian thing to do, of course, is to make everyone your friend. But then, I am human as it turns out. I learned the hard way that from time to time I also have to think of myself. To over-ride an inner belief system requires energy, and I only have that much energy at my disposal. There are instances when going our separate ways is best for all parties involved. 

While I have learned to protect my boundaries and energy level in all my interactions, I do make the Holy Spirit my ally whenever I interact with people. The Holy Spirit powers my energy and allows me to hang out with people I trust 100 percent. I do give new friends the benefit of doubt. How wonderful it is to see HER miracles at work rather than the self-fulfilling suspicions of my over-active mind. But then, when the doubt does become overwhelming, I retreat to protect myself. Retreating now might still set me up later to deal with my friend when he is ready. The Holy Spirit will reconnect us when we both are ready to bring our friendship to the next level. But until that blessed day, I retreat to try another day.

Saturday, August 12, 2017

The story of the poor man

There was once a young man who was so poor that he had hardly enough to eat. Worse than that, even the little food he kept always disappeared at night. One night he stayed up to find who was stealing from him and he discovered a little mouse that carried his left-over food away. He shouted at her, "why do you steal my food? I already have so little!", and she replied that it is his karma to never own more than 8 things at a time. So whenever he stored too much, she comes along and takes it in order to bring the universe back in balance. He was completely perplexed why a weird rule like that has to be written in stone so he decided to go and ask the Buddha about it who was teaching in a distant land.

On his way he passed a home of wealthy merchants and as it was already very late he asked them if he could stay overnight. When the family found out where he was headed they asked him to ask the Buddha why their daughter couldn't speak. He agreed and continued on his journey. Then he reached big mountains and met a wizard who flew him over carried by his staff. He too had a question for the Buddha, why isn't he already enlightened as the prophecy once had foretold? The young man agreed to ask and kept going. On the way he reached a big river he couldn't cross but a giant turtle offered to bring him to the other side. It turned out she too had a question, why wasn't she a dragon like her father?

When the young man reached the market place in the city where the Buddha was teaching he found a big crowd. To enable everyone a turn the Buddha allowed each visitor only three questions and the self-less man decided to drop his in order to let the turtle, the wizard and the merchant's daughter to find answers to their problems. The Buddha had a solution for everyone, he advised the turtle to stop hiding in her shell, the wizard to let go of the comforting power of his staff, and he prophesied that the young lady will be able to speak once she meets her soul mate.

When the young man told the giant turtle she let go of her shell and realized that she was a dragon all along. Once freed of the weight of the shell she flew him over the river. It also turned out that buried in the giant shell were many pearls which she happily gave to the young man. When he reached the wizard he let go of his staff as advised and immediately reached enlightenment. He too gave his staff to the man who used it to fly back over the mountains. And when he reached the home of the wealthy merchant the daughter smiled on his arrival and asked her father who that handsome young man was. They married and she was forever healed of her affliction.

The lesson learned here is that no karmic bonds can undermine our well-being as long as we use our talents for the service of others. Maybe the young man was constrained in his ability to own things, but having wealth, magic powers and the love of his life was probably enough to let him live happily ever after.

Friday, August 11, 2017

100 Percent

He should lift up the self by the Self,
and not sink into the selfish.
For the self is the only friend of the Self,
and the only foe.
(Lord Krishna, Bhagavad Gita)

"Losing 10 pounds is not a goal", an instructor once said, "exercising more, eating better, and stop drinking alcohol is." Her statement makes perfect sense from a control perspective since we only have control over the things we do but not our weight loss. For example, when we do well in life, or are in love, our metabolism runs fast. When we struggle in contrast, it slows down. Since the metabolism is key for burning calories, the events in our life have as impact on our weight as our lifestyle choices.

Still, when we always eat heathy and when we get our regular exercise and drink no alcohol, our body will eventually reward us with a lower weight. Same with our spiritual path, no matter how enlightened we might be, life circumstances and our experience of 'pleasure' and 'pain' is unfortunately out of our control. What we can do though, we can commit to our spiritual path 100 percent and eventually our happiness and peace of mind will thank us for it. 

As far as sticking to my spiritual rules is concerned, I am doing quite well. The same can't be said for my weight goal, however, I have been struggling professionally lately and as usual compensated my unhappiness with carbs and alcohol. Now that the autumn is around the corner, however, I have again reinstated the 100 percent goal for eating healthy food, exercising regularly and for not drinking alcohol. Let's build a little momentum for 2018 and see what happens.

Thursday, August 10, 2017

Get your job done and move on

The memory of the past unfulfilled desires traps energy, which manifests itself as a person. When its charge gets exhausted, the person dies. Unfulfilled desires are carried over into the next birth. I do not say that the same person is reborn. It dies and dies for good. But its memories remain and their desires and fears; they supply the energy for a new person
(Sri Nisargadatta Maharaj)

I watch the video of Kate Perry's 'Rise' and see the intense facial expressions of the competing athletes in Brazil's Olympics. The winners release this tension in one magnificent joyful explosion, the losers have to try again next time or find a new field that can express their competitive nature in. I don't have that burning desire any more in my job as a financial strategist but I am still in the race, carried by the energy of the people I am interacting with. Give me a good challenge, a meaningful encouragement or a unpleasant exchange to go up against and I will jump into the race like anyone. The spiritual advantage of being a warrior for twenty plus years though, we are kind of done with this competing stuff and more interested in collaboration and succeeding together.

Kerry Underwood sums up this energy entanglement quite well in 'See you again',

I will see you again, oh,
this is not where it ends.
I will carry you with me, oh,
'till I see you again!

When we fail to accomplish a mission, it prints itself into our soul and our DNA. We take this homework into a future life and our off-spring will also likely have to deal with the lingering energy. Never walk away from a mission worth fighting for. Refining perhaps, but never quitting! Retreat to take a break or to fight another day but then come back with twice the energy and motivation. The sub-conscience is relentless that way. Get your job done and move on.